Really, it just smells like pee.
Obviously, I have taken several home pregnancy tests in order to reassure myself that that second line keeps getting darker. With Baby #2, the line did NOT keep getting darker, and when it actually started to get lighter, I asked to have my blood levels checked. My doctor chocked this up to me being crazy but ordered the blood work to appease me anyway. Unfortunately, the results came back at 25 (which basically = barely pregnant), when it really should have been in the thousands by that point... or at least the hundreds. That was pretty much the writing on the wall for that pregnancy, I knew I was going to lose it the second I heard that number... and the next day I did.
So I think after what I've been through, I am entitled to a little craziness and a few extra pee-sticks for reassurance. My beta yesterday was a beautiful 1,150 (MUCH hire than the 25 it was at this point during Pregnancy #2), and even though I am very very nervous... I cannot deny it....
I have to tell myself that at least 10 times a day. I keep setting these mental hurdles in front of me and trying to figure out when/if we will ever be out of the woods and I will ever feel like this is really happening for us. The next hurdle will be my follow up blood work on Friday. That beta of 1,150 needs to quadruple by then, so please keep your fingers crossed for me.