It's really hard to tell if my "bad feelings" about this pregnancy are intuitive (like I think they were with Dominic) or just pessimism. I had myself CONVINCED there would be no heartbeat on the ultrasound today... but it was there. Just beating away. Minding it's own business. We even saw the baby wiggle around a little. It's crazy that something inside me the size of a blueberry can wiggle. It's official. We have created a tiny human. Or mobile chicken nugget. Too early to tell.
This was a huge relief, but I'm not sure how long this reassurance will last. A month? A few weeks? A day? An hour? It really could go any way at this point. I am understandably still anxious about letting people know about this pregnancy. But I do think some people at work are onto me. If you know me in real life and you know that I'm pregnant but I'm clearly pretending that I'm not... just keep it a secret with me a little longer 'kay? I'll let everyone know when I'm ready.